*sigh* again

WICH SERIAL KILLER ARE YOU? find out at: slitmyfuckingthroat.cjb.net*drools*isn't he the single most sexiest man on earth?i think so...and the bitch STILL has not written back! WTF?2 letters ffrom him and now NADA!FUCK YEW RICHIE! You, you....person who stops writing to people!

*sigh*

I'm typing up my literary analysis on The Old Man and the Sea....my god why didn't they just BURN this book!?!?!?It's the most pointless piece of shit I've ever read! Even worse than the Sun Also Rises....to anyone who likes Hemingway, you're fucking out of your mind! He is the most boring writer I've ever come across...*throws things*I ATE A RED PEAR AT WORK TODAY! YOU DID NOT!

"Pictures of You"~The Cure

I've been looking so long at these pictures of youThat I almost believe that they're real I've been living so long with my pictures of youThat I almost believe that the pictures are All I can feelRemembering You standing quiet in the rain As I ran to your heart to be near And we kissed as the sky fell inHolding you close How I always held close in your fearRemembering You running soft through the night You were bigger and brighter and wider than snowAnd screamed at the make-believe Screamed at the skyAnd you finally found all your courage To let it all goRemembering You fallen into my arms Crying for the death of your heart You were stone whiteSo delicate Lost in the cold You were always so lost in the darkRemembering You how you used to be Slow drowned You were angelsSo much more than everything Hold for the last time then slip away quietly Open my eyes But I never see anythingIf only I'd thought of the right words I could have held on to your heart If only I'd thought of the right wordsI wouldn't be breaking apart All my pictures of youLooking so long at these pictures of you But I never hold on to your heart Looking so long for the words to be trueBut always just breaking apartMy pictures of youThere was nothing in the worldThat I ever wanted more Than to feel you deep in my heartThere was nothing in the world That I ever wanted moreThan to never feel the breaking apartAll my pictures of you

procrastination is bad, very, very BAD!

OH FUCK!I'm sitting here, attempting to type up this literary analysis for the most boring book in the world and it's just not working at all.This fucking paper's due TODAY. It's already 2 days late...and I didn't even read half the thing. SHIT. I SUCK!Damn. This is ridiculous, ok...Jerry, the one that was severly (yet, not so severly) injured at school last week has been suspended for the rest of the trimester. THAT'S RIGHT LADIES & GENTLEMEN! Self-defense is now considered a crime to the school system! *in a Briton like tone* BOLLOCKS!But he's ok. I talked to Josh last night and apparantly Jerry has a SMALL cut above his eye, so SMALL in fact, that he's sporting a nice little BAND AID on it...If you could've SEEN the blood that night, you'd think it was a fucking gash in his forehead!My god.People suck.He enters our lives here at adult education again at the beginning of march, being the last trimester.yay.

Go Faeries!!T...

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don't hurt jerry. he's fun!

from last thursday:After stressing all day about not finishing a literary analysis, I had no idea what would happen tonight. Sitting in Youth & Law at 7, Mrs. fucking Kearney comes in and yells at me for having my hat on again. I say JESUS!Then, she yells at me again... We're combining classes tonight bcuz the faculty's having a meeting & both classes getting a sub. Sitting there, me and Sarah complain about the work and our shitty, 70 year old teacher.Half an hour goes by, the idiots in our class will NOT shut up. Lionel & Jerry are throwing stuff at each other and blaming on another for making disruptions. I was sorta disappointed in Jerry bcuz i thought he was more mature than that. Anywaym Mrs. Avery has almost had it and keeps telling them to be quiet. Suddenly, Jerry gets up and goes over to Lionel's desk to pick up something. Lionel springs out of his chair and puts Jerry in a headlock and starts punching him. Avery tells someone to get Mitch (the security guard). 2 people exit the room. I go to the phone and dial the office. Apparantly, while I wasn't looking, Lionel hit Jerry in the head with a book...I didn't notice, so I walk into the hall to see if Mitch is coming, he's not. I turn back around to see Jerry shaking, not violently, but erratically..very, very, erratically. I see blood dripping all over the floor from Jerry's hand. Was he stabbed???No, Lionel hit him with a Street Law book...cutting Jerry just above the left eye. I was getting queasy, very queasy. And that's weird cuz I've never gotten queasy at the sight of blood before... I'm standing there, shocked. Then Jerry just screams.. He officially scared the shit out of me. Then he yells, "If you had done that when I was looking Lionel, maybe I wouldn't be so pissed!" I go back and sit at my desk, queasy and upset. people are snickering around me. I feel like saying, what the hel is wrong with you people!? But i don't. Poor Jerry's bleeding all over the place and all I want to do is hug him. After they're both escorted from the room, I pack up my stuff and leave. I only get halfway down the hall when I start to cry. i see Lionel go into the office, i don't want to give the satisfaction of seeing me cry, and i don't want to kill him, so i sit down in the stairwell. Soon enough, a hall moniter finds me and asks if I'm ok. I can't even talk, I'm shaking and crying so much. Then I try to explain that Jerry was bleeding a lot, and he was screaming and it was all too real for me. She says it's ok, he's ok and brings me into the office to sit down. I could barely walk... I overhear Jerry in the other room, talking about how Lionel always picks on him. He had no idea why he just attacked him like that. I ask the lady sittig next to me if I can call my mom. She says, sure...I tried to explain what happened to my mom but everything was so tangled together and some teacher had to explain what happened. I sit down again. Then I go back to where I was originally sitting. After a few minutes I have to ask, "is he ok?", although i know he is, I just have to make sure. She says he's ok, he's gonna be fine. A couple people ask if i know Jerry. I do, but I don't. I've talked to him a couple times. I tried to talk him into buying tickets to Renata's cd release party, but he said he didn't have a ride to Hartford. Another time, when Mrs. Connelly was teaching our English class, I walked in a little early, when Jerry's class was just ending. He was the only one in there and he was reading this beautiful poem to Mrs. Connelly. Mrs. Connelly was the nicest person, you could share anything with her and she'd never ever judge you. Anyway, I didn't want to be intrusive, so i left and stood outside the door, eavesdropping. lol. That's how wonderful it was. When he finished, I went back in and he was talking about how he was just writing one night and it just came out of him. He said he didnt know he could write anything like that. I was just in awe. It was so fuckin deep. Point of this story. Jerry's a hell of a kewl guy and I have no idea why someone woule want to harm him. The police arrive and they want to get a statement from me. In the middle of the statement, my mom walks in and the cop has to explain what's going on. I told him everything I saw, reviewed the statement, then signed it. Walking out of the office, I want to find Sarah, but my mom said we should just go and i should call her later. As we're walking out the front door, I see what I thought was a cop sitting in the front seat of the police car. He looks way too nice, and way too young to be a cop. Then I realize it was Jerry and felt humiliated. But he was smiling at me and I don't know why. I guess it was bcuz I was the only one down at that fucking office that was actually truly concerned about him, while everyone else was in class, laughing about the blood on the floor and covering up what they truly felt. I just wanted to hit things, I was so pissed off. I was sick of talking about it and I was sick of it repeating over and over in my head. It was the scariest thing that's ever happened to me. It's different than on tv...Majorly different.It was horrible.I don't ever want to live through that again..I hope Jerry's ok.

i'm you're lover, i'm your zero...

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i cut my hair...

i cut my hair into a sort of mohawk thing.... :)my mom thinks i wanted to give myself a crew cut...i was laughing...a crew cut, yet i have a mohawk???hmmm......

this is how much of a life i have at the moment...

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AHHH!

Chris-FUCKING-Heneghan is playing with Pete Sirge at the Equator tomorrow!!!!*screams like a little girl**ahem*wow.Well fuck yew too!I made a new little icon! t hee, the me and cal....possibly? iconyeh im not fucking infatuated ok?my fuck what is wrong with you people?oh shit....i have shit to do....later

1 more thing..

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to: c. r. ; merry christmas <3

We don't have all the answers.But those who do, usually spontaneously combust within a matter of 5 seconds.Was that supposed to sound philosophical or comical?I don't even know. Oh well.Nana had a stroke on Monday, she needs to stay in the hospital for a week, and then go to a rehabilitation center for aboput 3 weeks so she can learn to walk on her left side again. :*(She's in good health though, and she's not paralyzed on her left side like she was on Monday. I need to find someone to work for me on Saturday bcuz I'm going up to visit her...I hate when you get too close to someone, then all of a sudden they depend on you for everything! I'm not the world's greatest friend. I'm an asshole.I hate the fact that I'm just like everyone else. I depend on different people for different things. And this leads back to the main person I was writing about...My apologies ok...mostly go to Cal. I tell you everything that's shit or well off in my life whenever it happens. And I'm sorry.You're the only person who I feel like is actually listening to me. You know exactly what to say whenever I'm down. I guess I love you. But you know that already.I remember that night you were crying and told me all the shit you were going through. I remember the time you called when I was seriously thinking about taking my life.I remember when Kyle gave me the 666 mm site and I recall picking up your screen name from that site and adoring the fuck out of you during our first conversation. I don't think I've ever felt that much magic in my life...EVER. You made me piss my pants laughing (NOT literally, heh).I love when you call me a Briton...and I have no idea why...We don't talk anymore though.Not like we used to.You're the deepest, smartest, most wonderful person I've ever been aquainted with.I love the in-depth conversations we had/have. I won't ever forget them.I feel as though you're out of my reach sometimes.I think I scare you.I know I'm abrasive, and I don't mean to be most of the time. I miss you.</c>I can't stop talking about you lately, or thinking about you.I should be happy for you two.But for some reason, I'm not. I'm glad you're happy though :) Hope you are... You're amazing... Please consider us someday?</c>

oh boy...

6:00 Did Yoga this morning for better posture. I felt good! Had an orange and some water.6:30Took my meds1 PseudoGuaif1 AmbienAMBIEN????I took my mom's sleeping pill accidentally instead of my *STAY HAPPY* pills! It was chaos.8:00I just threw up like 5 times....Something's caught in my throat, don't know whether it was part of an orange or just stubborn phleghm.Either way, I stayed awake long enough to record the Care Bears movie. I lost that a while ago...Ah well....

i adore he...

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too much time on my hands again...

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weapon of choice :)

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"Untitled #12"~John Frusciante

Blood on your head in catastrophes, icicles,No one's fed in cycles led by cycle deadAsked to shine the flagLoves his distant townBlue scents like apples bitesAnd flows through our handsI said hi to a man who shot his sisterRan through the stationAnd jumped in front of a trainShould have lookedConfused to meet youWell, that's what scissors do to a daySo their smile paves the wayAnd sand drifts with wavesAnd clouds my headCuz I'm a fortune fella's deadAnd I'm the tunes played by the goonsWho ride to fare his woundsAnd stole the road the other wayAnd sold tomorrow to yesterdayAnd I know the feeling of pushing youOut of a buildingTiny people pulsatingHit the skyBut still the ground got up and whacked your faceYou expected to flyWind up your misfortunesSling 'em to a maitre d'Who wears dead butterflies on his faceAnd is hoping to grow wingsHe really wants to tell you, heyGive your tears to todayGrind yourself souvenirs into your stolen yearsUnder your pocketYour hands getting numbIn and urban blind slide.Do the avenues that seem to meet defeat you?Did you ever try to hug the sky behind your head?I walked forever, so it seemed,The screen suffered a mean, green ping. Diveheadfirst into a hole in the water.Dragged side to side like a floating machineDove dancing to a fable told in a sea of the disintegrationCrawled to a celebration of dirt and leaves that tastes like wineSucked from a hell that digs into the darknessFull of the fair that my head ridesI slide your kind through a ladderHanging on a starStray close, so far away from the crime.A taped-line section of introspection.To rewind would be to recline.Hit the pounds underlyingAnd gently ride on the signTell your problems to ZeroHe's got nothing to hide.

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HAH!i won a Thelonious Monster CD and a Chili Peppers 2002 calender on eBay today!woo hoo!it's seriously an addiction though....i'm the highest bidder for all these different items, yet I have nooo idea how I'm going to pay any of them off. FUCK!oh well, at least I have Chili Peppers happiness :) ah, the John-ness... *sigh*I want to party on your pussy baby, i want to party on your pus-say...

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HAH!i won a Thelonious Monster CD and a Chili Peppers 2002 calender on eBay today!woo hoo!it's seriously an addiction though....i'm the highest bidder for all these different items, yet I have nooo idea how I'm going to pay any of them off. FUCK!oh well, at least I have Chili Peppers happiness :) ah, the John-ness... *sigh*I want to party on your pussy baby, i want to party on your pus-say...

screws...

Anyone that licks me is sure to say I taste like:Click here to take the new and improved Ice Cream Flavor Test at assbabies.org!*whines*why don't I have anything interesting to say today!?!?!?!?Oh Oh! I know!Shane is in my math class this trimester!and and and Cassie got into night school! (finally)Last night in English class Paige and Shavon got into another fight. Great start for a new trimester...Apparantly they both have kids from the same guy and they hate each other for it...oh well. It was their choice to fuck the retard anyway...people suck, and i haven't talked to Jon or Cal in a long time...Jeebuz! Not even Kyle! I'm abandoning my Stratford friends!!!! That's another thing. As soon as I save up enough money and have a car I am...in fact, moving to Greenwich Village with Sarah...(I hope she's still coming). I'm not living there by myself, no thank you.I have a Yoda toothbrush.Hmm. I don't know what to get anyone for xmas.Poo...Oh well.

screws...

Anyone that licks me is sure to say I taste like:Click here to take the new and improved Ice Cream Flavor Test at assbabies.org!*whines*why don't I have anything interesting to say today!?!?!?!?Oh Oh! I know!Shane is in my math class this trimester!and and and Cassie got into night school! (finally)Last night in English class Paige and Shavon got into another fight. Great start for a new trimester...Apparantly they both have kids from the same guy and they hate each other for it...oh well. It was their choice to fuck the retard anyway...people suck, and i haven't talked to Jon or Cal in a long time...Jeebuz! Not even Kyle! I'm abandoning my Stratford friends!!!! That's another thing. As soon as I save up enough money and have a car I am...in fact, moving to Greenwich Village with Sarah...(I hope she's still coming). I'm not living there by myself, no thank you.I have a Yoda toothbrush.Hmm. I don't know what to get anyone for xmas.Poo...Oh well.

allow myself to introduce...myself.

i watched an Isaac Mizrahi documentary type thing todayso i bid on one of his items on eBay...so there.ummm...bye